JOSHUA & JAMIE WAGGONER

Heres the boys decoration from Rains Summer Fun Day :)
 

My Dearest Cathy,
Never forget your two beautiful boys are always in my daily prayers.
I hope they heard me this am.

I cannot tell you how I feel or there are not any words to express how I met such wonderful families on my babies site
and all the other beautiful families and their beautiful children. It is like I have known all of you for such a long time.
No matter which site I go to I read the whole life story of each child every time. Even though I have read them already.
That is why I feel like they are family to me. I also cry each and every time. I am trying to get back to each family that continue
to write to my Joey. I just put my Mother in a Nursing Home and I am there everyday to feed her.
I was taking care of her for 5 1/2 months at home, until I could no longer do it by myself.
I am now taking care of my father, and I am just exhausted. My father is starting to get the same thing as my mom and it is a nightmare.
She has Alzmheimer's Disease. I have been a nurse for 38 years, when my baby was taken from me, I went out on medical leave and I did try to go back on 3 different occasion's and I could no longer do it I did not want to 
put my patient's at risk with my frame of mind. Since my Joey, it took some time but, I did write a book.
I thought it would help many Mom's & families. I had to also put that on hold.
I had book signing, readings, etc. I am actually on my second book but of course I had to stop in the middle of writing and put that also on hold.As you know families of course come first.
I am still in mourning over my baby and will be until my time comes & I am reunited with my Joey once again.
I am hoping with all my "heart" that my book will help others. You can get any and all information at www.deborahdematthews.com
But I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for writing to my Joey.
To my dearest friend,
Love to each and every one,
Love,
Debbie/Joseph's Mom.  I also want everyone to know that any proceeds from the book is going to charity, school's, church's
and families that lost a love one unexpected, in Joey's name, to me it is keeping my Joey's name alive.
xxxooo

Hey boys! Heres the balloon we released for you guys in Disney World :)

I miss you guys, but you are always in my daily prayers.

Love,
Debbie

Hey boys! Heres your lollipops from Rains Summer Fun Day :)

                   

MEMORIES

 

Life stands still and aches with memories.

Memories that aches so deeply of a precious life cut too short.

My son Patrick who left me behind to grieve

a loss that has no words, no definition,

no explanation, no concept.

I am left only with sorrowful feelings that linger deep

within my wounded soul reminding me to hold on to those

bittersweet memories.

These memories which came from a life that I love

so dearly and treasure.

God, help me to keep those powerful memories

because today I cherish them more than my own existence,

for it is my memories of my son Patrick, who is my life and

my light until the end.

 

Dedicated to my son Patrick Christian Barbosa

Dear Michelle and Joshua & Jamie,
First Michelle I want to say Happy Mother's Day.

I know I have not been here in awhile. I have been in and out of the hospital. I am home now and I expect to stay here. I am going to try and start writing to all the families again. It just I guess took such a toll on me. I have always been here and the boy's are always in my daily prayer's. I miss talking with you.

I know it is hard for you, because you felt just like me, I don't think you have been on here as much as you use to.
It is just so hard.... I know in my heart it will never get better and my life will never be the same. I know your boys are with you all the time and especially today.

Michelle, just remember you are always in my daily prayers....

Always,
Debbie/Joe's Mom