JOSHUA & JAMIE WAGGONER

Hi Hon, Just sitting here thinking about you as always. It's almost Memorial Day and You should be remembering me, not me remembering you. Aunt Kim and I went to the cemetery to decorate and I know what you would say, but I feel I need to do something for you. I sure do miss you hun, wish I could talk to you and give you a big hug. It seems like forever since I saw you. Frank and I have been working on the house, really looks nice. We also have been doing some work in the yard, what a job that is. It helps alot to keep busy and not think of the negative things so much. Your never far from my mind and always in my heart forever. Take care of your brother and someday we will see each other again. Love you both with all my heart. Big hugs and lots of kisses,

Love, your mom

I CANT BELIEVE YOUR 31 TODAY, SURE MAKES YOUR MOM FEEL OLD. I WAS THINKING OF THE MORNING YOU WERE BORN AND HOW HAPPY I WAS TO HAVE A SON. ALL I EVER WANTED FOR YOU WAS TO BE HAPPY AND I HOPE THAT FOR AT LEAST PART OF YOUR LIFE, YOU WERE. I NOW KNOW THAT THINGS HERE WERE NOT ALWAYS EASY FOR YOU, I ONLY WISH I HAD KNOWN JUST HOW HARD THEY WERE. I MISS YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW. I PRAY THAT YOU HAVE FOUND THAT HAPPINESS AND SOMEDAY, WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN. UNTIL THEN, BE GOOD AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR BROTHER. SENDING YOU BOTH BUNCHES OF HUGS N KISSES. TELL THE FAMILY THERE WITH YOU HELLO FROM ME. I LOVE YOU BOTH SO VERY MUCH AND MISS YOU EVERY SECOND. AGAIN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE.

LOVE FOREVER AND ALWAYS, MA   

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                  

It's been a 4 long years and a very rough road without you Joshua, I know you never wanted to hurt me, that was not your purpose. It has taken me a long time to understand that. Yes, I was angry after this happened but not anymore. Just know that I love you and always will. I have told you many times that no matter what you did, I will love you unconditionally. I may not like what you did but that doesn't change my love for you. I hope your happy and have found whatever you were looking for. I know it wasn't easy for you here and for that I'm sorry. I did the best I knew how. If only you had talked to me, maybe we could have made things a little better for you. You are never away from my thoughts and will always be in my heart. I love you son, don't ever forget that. Until I see you again, you have all my love.

Hugs to you hun, Love, Ma

I miss you so much boys, it's so hard sometimes to get up in the mornings. I sure wish there was a phone line to heaven so I could talk to you. I miss your calls Joshua. I still find myself sometimes wanting to pick up the phone and call you. Then, reality hits home. I thought maybe as time went by, it would get easier but, I find myself missing you more and more. Sometimes I pretend your on vacation or off working. I know that sounds silly but it's true.

Jamie, mommy misses you too. I miss all the things that I had with your brother. I never got to hear you cry, feed you, change your diaper, first word, walking, starting school and all the other things. You be a good boy and someday, we will be together. I love you boys more than anything in the world. Joshua, you look after him until I get there. I can't wait to see you again.

You will forever have my heart, love, Mom

Merry Christmas hon, the day will not be the same without you here. It's so hard for me to go and gather with the family, watching everyone with their kids and grandkids and your not there. I know they all deserve a happy time together so I just put on my happy face. Deep down inside, my heart is breaking. I miss you so much and don't know what to do sometimes. I feel like I could just explode. I love you and you know that. Have a wonderful day with your brother, granny and all the other angels with you. Someday we will get to have Christmas together again. You will always have my heart son. Hugs, Kisses and all my love. Ma

HI HON, JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW HOW MISSED

YOU ARE AND WILL BE THIS CHRISTMAS. IT'S JUST NOT

THE SAME ANYMORE. I HAVE ONLY GR-MA & GR-PA, AND FRANKIE

TO BUY FOR. I USED TO LOVE TO GO SHOPPING FOR YOU, AND YOU

KNOW YOUR MOM, I HATE SHOPPING. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ALL

THE STARS IN THE NIGHT SKY, ALL THE BLADES OF GRASS THAT

COVER THE EARTH, I MISS YOU. I'M NOT ANGRY ANYMORE HON, I'VE

HAD TIME TO THINK THINGS THROUGH AND REALIZE THAT YOU

JUST COULDN'T COPE WITH LIFE HERE ANY LONGER. YOU DID THE

ONLY THING YOU KNEW TO DO. IT'S OK. I ONLY WISH YOU WOULD

HAVE TALKED TO ME ABOUT IT. I'M DOING ALRIGHT. JUST WANTED TO

SAY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND WISH YOU WERE HERE. LOVE YOU FOREVER. LOVE MA

HI HON, WELL, TOMORROW IS THE BIG 30. SURE DO WISH YOU WERE HERE SO WE COULD HAVE A BIG PARTY FOR YOU. I'M SURE YOU WILL BE CELEBRATING WITH ALL YOUR ANGEL FRIENDS AND FAMILY IN HEAVEN. I WILL BE RELEASING 30 BALLOONS FOR YOU AND I'M SURE AUNT KIM AND GRANDMA & GRANDPA WILL BE THERE. YOU ARE SO MISSED BY EVERYONE AND YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. LIFE FOR ME IS NOT THE SAME. I NEED MY SON HERE WITH ME. ALL I HOPE IS THAT YOUR HAPPY AND AT PEACE. THATS ALL I HAVE EVER WANTED FOR YOU. I KNOW LIFE HERE WAS HARD FOR YOU AND FOR THAT, I'M SORRY. IF I HAD KNOWN HOW ROUGH IT WAS, MAYBE I COULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING TO HELP. JUST KNOW THAT I LOVE AND MISS YOU MORE THAN I THOUGHT WAS POSSIBLE. THE DAY YOU WERE  BORN WAS ONE OF THE HAPPIEST DAYS OF MY LIFE. THE OTHER ONE WAS WHEN YOUR BROTHER WAS BORN. I KNOW YOUR TOGETHER AND THAT SOMEDAY WE WILL ALL BE TOGETHER AGAIN. ALL MY LOVE SWEETIE, MA

HI HON, WELL, ANOTHER BIRTHDAY WITHOUT YOU. THIS ONE IS A BIG ONE, YOUR 30TH. I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. I MISS SEEING YOUR FACE, HEARING YOUR VOICE. THE PHONE CALLS EVERY DAY. IT'S JUST NOT THE SAME AROUND HERE. I HOPE YOU HAVE A BIG CELEBRATION WITH GRANNY AND JAMIE AND ALL THE FRIENDS YOU HAVE THERE. JUST WITH YOU COULD BE HERE WITH ME TOO. I ONLY HOPE JOSHUA THAT YOUR HAPPY NOW AND AT PEACE. I GUESS THIS OLD WORLD WAS TOO HARD FOR YOU. I AGREE, SOMETIMES THINGS SEEM UNBEARABLE. JUST KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND ALWAYS WILL. SOMEDAY I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN AND YOU'LL HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THIS OLD MOM FOREVER. YOUR IN MY HEART FOREVER AND ALWAYS.

HUGS AND MUCH LOVE AND KISSES TO YOU HON. I LOVE YOU, MA