JOSHUA & JAMIE WAGGONER

HI MY SWEET BOY, ANOTHER HOLIDAY APPROACHING AND I SPEND IT WITHOUT YOU. INSTEAD OF GETTING EASIER, IT'S HARDER. I THINK BACK TO ALL THE BIRTHDAYS, CHRISTMAS'S, THANKSGIVINGS AND ALL THE OTHER HOLIDAYS THAT YOU'VE MISSED. IT'S SO HARD FOR ME TO ENJOY THEM ANYMORE.

I AM SO FULL OF ANGER JOSH, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT. MOSTLY WITH YOUR DAD. I SOMEHOW FEEL THAT IF HE HAD BEEN THE DAD TO YOU THAT YOU NEEDED, MAYBE YOU WOULD STILL BE HERE. I'M ALSO ANGRY WITH MYSELF. I LOOK BACK AND WISH SO MUCH THAT I HAD DONE SOME THINGS DIFFERENT. MAYBE IT'S GUILT INSTEAD OF ANGER, I DON'T KNOW.

I JUST NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST, I ALWAYS LOVED YOU AND ALWAYS WILL. YOU WERE MY BUDDY, MY FRIEND, MY SON. I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO SEE YOUR FACE AND HEAR YOUR VOICE AGAIN. 

I SO HOPE YOUR AT PEACE AND HAVE FOUND THE HAPPINESS THAT YOU COULD'NT FIND HERE. I LOVE YOU MY SON. MISS YOU MORE THAN I EVER THOUGHT WAS POSSIBLE.

WATCH OVER YOU BROTHER AND TELL HIM I LOVE HIM. I'LL BE WITH YOU BOTH AGAIN SOMEDAY.  HUGS AND KISSES FOREVER, LOVE, MA

HI HON, SURE DO MISS YOU. I'D GIVE ANYTHING TO HEAR YOUR VOICE, SEE YOUR SMILE

OR EVEN LISTEN WHEN YOUR ANGRY. I REMEMBER SO MANY TIMES YOU WOULD BE UPSET

OVER SOMETHING AND CALL ME. WE WOULD TALK AND SOON YOU WOULD CALM DOWN.

I MISS YOUR PHONE CALLS. I STILL HAVE YOUR CELL PHONE EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT ACTIVATED.

I HAVE YOUR VOICE ON TAPE BUT CAN'T BRING MYSELF TO LISTEN TO IT. SO MANY THINGS

I MISS. JUST KNOW THAT I ALWAYS LOVED YOU AND TRIED MY BEST TO SHOW IT. WHEN YOU

LEFT, IT WAS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE AND I DOUBT THAT I WILL EVER FEEL LIKE THAT

AGAIN. SOMEDAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN SO WAIT FOR ME AT THOSE PEARLY GATES.

FOREVER AND ALWAYS, LOVE MA

You know there will never be an answer......... We just have to know that our son's are in a better place....... No pain.........no sorrow .................no tears............ Oh man what a life.....in Our Father's House.....I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS.  Please Believe Me when I say that. I know the pain of loosing something so dear to you that you would take their place,...........but think My God is a loving God. He has our children under his wing. I believe that with all of my heart. Our God is a loving God. He has taken all the pain away from our son's. They are in a big big yard where they can play football. There is a Big Big table with lots and lots of food.IN MY FATHER'S HOUSE. We will meet again IN our father's house.

                                                                               Please Know They Are In A Better Place,